So I was in Colorado Springs visiting my father last week and boy what a week it was! I got in around midnight on Monday night/Tuesday morning after having a hard time with my flights. Tuesday we went to my dads work where they have a rock climbing wall that's about 30 feet high. So I decided I'd try it out! We hooked me up and I climbed to the top my first try! (on the easy route of course :-P) I then climbed down about halfway before asking how I'm 'supposed' to get down. I was told to jump! The harness should catch me and bring me down slowly. Well the loop on my harness snapped and I fell to the ground fracturing 2 vertebrae and bruising a lung. I was only in the hospital 27 hours! I have the amazing EMTs and hospital staff to thank for that. They were all absolutely fantastic. Memorial Hospital in Colorado Springs definitely exceeded any expectations I may have had.
Now let's talk about this whole experience....
I just want to point out that I am so very blessed to be where I'm at with this injury. Yes, I broke 2 vertebrae, but guess what? I'm walking fine (doing light cardio in fact), I can sit straight, and continue to live a mostly normal life (limited movements for right now). I VERY EASILY could have been killed or paralyzed in this accident. It would have taken landing slightly differently to change my life forever. I am just so thankful that the Lord was looking out for me on June 19. My dad witnessed everything and he said he has never been so scared in life...which is saying something considering what hell he has been through in the past. His baby girl was knocked unconscious, wind knocked out of her. I woke up and had no idea where I was, but I knew my back was hurt so I just laid there. I was so thankful when I wiggled my toes and they were doing what I wanted them to do. This past week has been pretty emotional. I now know that I was put on this earth for some reason...I just don't know why yet.
So they say you should live life to the fullest everyday, right? Well now, I really want to! After realizing how blessed I was in this situation, I just want to do SOMEthing with my life. I mean so far what have I done? I've gone to school.....that's it. Sure, I've had some good times in between, but I really want to live. As of right now, I work, go to the gym, and come home. That's it. I'm 21 years old and I have such an empty space in my heart. I don't know what's missing. Is it love? Family? I'm just not sure. I am such an adrenaline junky and I never get to live that out here in good 'ole Eastern North Carolina. Maybe a move is in need. Colorado Springs with my Dad? There's all sorts of outdoor fun there...all year round. I just....I don't know!!! I feel so dissatisfied and I know that my days are limited....as I said, this week has been emotional and eye-opening.
My thoughts are scattered right now, so forgive me if while reading this it seems jumpy. I just needed to get out some of these feelings...I was also hoping that writing it out would give me a clue, but it didn't lol
If you're reading this, go live your life!!! And of course, have a blessed day :)
